I am having a week's break from work starting from yesterday..thats the thing i love about my office culture..as its an American company, they value xmas season..so we have official break from 25th Dec all the way till 3rd Jan =D but that is provided we can finish whatever work on hand..i went back to office on monday & managed to finish all my work..so now i m enjoying the one week break..whee~ i deserve this break...

Brought mum out to shop yesterday..bought her a pair of 18k white gold diamond earrings & a black dress for her to wear on cousin's wedding..she'll look stunning on cousin's wedding day =) for myself i bought a black top that can go with my black leggings..shopping makes me happy but i am officially broke now..oops..anyone having lobangs for temp jobs?hahaha..

Won a pair of movie passes at Cathay Cineleisure from company's lucky draw..initially did plan something but seems like the 2 tickets will go to waste as the expiry date for the movie passes is today..was so excited when i got the movie passes a week ago but now juz gotta waste them..

Oh ya mum got herself an iphone at $58!! gosh thats so freaking cheap..she recontract her line at Starhub & use her voucher so managed to get the iphone at such a price..i want a new phone too =~(

Received a flattering remark of me having the aura of a princess *blush* lol..i dunno how true that statement is but i know i'll forever be the princess in my mum's eyes~

This is the first time that i watch program on Channel U in a long long time..all because i recognized the lead cast is my ex classmate!! gosh it is a surprise to see an old friend on tv =)
After that i accompany mum to watch the match btw Arsenal & Aston Villa..Ars won 3-0 so i think my dear mum is in a good mood now..haha..

I had a surprise from him on xmas day..received a call from him around noon while i was still sleeping..dint say much as i was in a blur state from the sleep..juz asked me to call him again when i wake up..called back when i got out of bed after sometime, to realize that he actually came all the way to wdls to buy stuff & waited so he can pick me up to go his place for bbq in the evening..

Had some quiet moments before the bbq starts, so he told me he had stuff to tell me..the short talk & xmas gift came as a surprise..i felt happy but i believed that i was too surprised that i completely dint know how to react..i might have numbed myself too much previously to be reacting in this way..but a part of me is still glad & relieved that he did something..cos i know that given the way my heart has been lately, things might juz head downhill if nothing was done..i appreciate the effort & hope it will be consistent..

I realized i am someone who need to communicate..
I realized i need to feel affection constantly to hold on..
I hope that the closing heart will start opening again...

Had a great time in office today celebrating xmas eve..received a whole lots of gifts..i love the people there..most of us were not in the mood to work as the festive bug already hit us..so the whole of today we were half-working half-having fun in the office..i love to be in this kind of atmosphere as it brings laughters & joy..merry xmas folks!
I love the way Abigail stroked my back to soothe my mood when she sees me stressed with work =)

Shir msged me in the afternoon to ask if i wanna join the gals for the nite..so met the gals at East Coast after work to wait for Beelian who performs as liveband at the cafe to knock off..bought mcdonalds & drove to the beach..we had our countdown eating mac, enjoying the sea breeze & chit chatting..after that head to Davina's house for gift exchange..we were all busy playing with her puppy Baby..Baby is a few months old yorkshire terrier..think Baby likes me cos she kept pounching on me & licking me..i always have this affinity with puppies..i suspect its either i smell like a dog or some dog food =D hahaha..i used to have a dog i loved so much but she died when i was 10 =~( miss my Xiaobai..anyway, while playing with Baby, we cleanly forgotten about the gift exchange until Bee reminded us..oops..anyway i brought back one big bag of gifts home today & there's another bag waiting for me in the office..hahaha..i m so loved~

I realized for the past few years i've not spend any christmas or new year countdowns with him..every other events seemed to supersede me, be it friends gatherings or company events..how can it be possible to not spend any of the countdowns together not even once for several years? i think i might know the answer..i should have knew it long ago..

My heart is not as warm & gentle as it was before..

You might not need certain people or things in life as much as u thought you do.

I am so in love with Park Kahi..how can a woman still be so youthful & full of life at the age of 30..she's the motivation to age gracefully..her physical attributes & the way she carries herself is so captivating that everytime she's on screen i simply cant keep my eyes off her..watching dance clips of After School ladies ignite my passion for dancing..Kahi is simply charismatic~

I dun mean to be a narcissist, but there were a few times today when i saw my reflections in the mirror i actually find myself pretty oops =P

Wanted so much to watch this reality program 心晴大动员2 on channel 8 today but i worked late so missed it..who knows where can i get the clips or the timings of the repeats? really wanted to catch it so much..i love this program when i watched season one..this show teaches us not to take anything we have in life for granted as we own more than alot unfortunate people around us..

Read from the news that Brittany Murphy died yesterday as a result of cardiac arrest..got a shock as she's only 32 years old..how short life can actually be..descend of another hollywood star..

My regular friend every month paying me a visit again..yes cramps..gonna sip some warm drinks & head to bed..not to forget medicine for the stubborn cough..good nite..i have a good feeling that the rain will help me sleep better tonite...

Been sick for the past few days & it doesnt seem to get alot better even though i rested the whole weekend saying no to all outing invites..might want to resort to chinese physician if i m still unwell by the time i finish my prescription..cant really feel myself for the past 2 days owing to the drowsy medication i've been taking..most of the time i feel as if i m in dreamland..even my mum is abit nonchalent about the fact that i m sick & in bed most of the time =(
I need to be taken care of...

Read this from twin's post lately..wanna share it with all my girlfriends..

The difference between Men & Boys

A boy looks good with his shirt off
A man looks good because of the way he looks at you

A boy will smile during the good times
A man will laugh during the bad

A boy goes to work because he has to
A man works because he can

A boy buys a plasma screen television
A man accumulates a library

A boy will hug you in the kitchen
A man will hold your hand anywhere you are together

A boy knows how to load the washing machine
A man knows what doesnt go in the dryer

A boy reads the grocery list you have written
A man will shop it with you, put it away, and cook anything on it

A boy will talk to you about a lousy day
A man will ask you about yours, and listen

A boy will read a to-do list
A man knows what has to be done

A boy will tell you what you want to hear
A man will tell you what he has to say

A boy will share a thought
A man will share his dreams

A boy will tell you he feels good when he is with you
A man will tell you how he feels when he cant be at your side

A boy will share intimate moments with you
A man.....will share his life

Of all times i've to have cravings for Gelare ice cream waffles now when having a bad cough!

Watched "Twilight Saga: New Moon" on fri nite..was abit disappointed with the show..Robert Pattinson & Kristen Stewart looked tired, in fact Taylor Lautner stands out more than the 2 leads..some words in the show are so cliche that i felt tickled..but despite the show being dull, we had a good time making our little jokes out of it..hahah..
If u were Bella, will u choose the vampire or the werewolf?

Spent $50 at the clinic this morning *heartache* the pain was excruciating on the way back home n i still feel the twinge now..but i know i've to go thru it & i'll be juz fine in a few days time..so chose not to whimper about it & take it easy..it actually felt nice to stay positive in grim circumstances =) my happiness depend on me, not others, so i m in control..keep this spirit up~

Relatives came over my place today..my cute little cousin Kaiwei still loves my room as usual..she kept amusing me with the facial expressions she made..hehe..so adorable..
2 other cousins oso came into my room playing around my bed & they accidentally broke my Winnie the Pooh clock =~( i really like that clock cos the colour match the hue of my room..but told myself nvm its juz a clock..i can always get a new one so no point getting upset about it..i've decided to be happy so i will not delay anymore..gotta start training my mind to positive thinking..

Jan & Yong have been into this serial lately..so due to stong recommendation i started watching "Vampire Diaries" today..abit hooked to it..there are alot of shows that i wanted to watch..Grey's Anatomy, Supernatural latest season, CSI NY latest season, Ghost Whisperer, Flash Forward n the list goes on..but i cant seem to find time for them =P

Learn to love whats good for u...

I realized fear is a factor that has been holding me back from living my life to the fullest..my fear nv seemed to abate, n i dun have many moments of peace..when i start thinking about it, i know that i cannot let fear get the best of me..i need to find a way to rid myself of the negativism that prevailed my life..oso need to unlearn the thinkings that had been keeping me prisoner of my own insecurities..no matter what degree of insecurity i m feeling, a part of me know that there is still alot of wonderful stuff within me juz waiting to be let out..

To diminish fears i have to develop more trust in my ability to handle watever comes my way..pushing thru fears is actually less frightening than living with the underlying fears that comes from a feeling of helplessness..i read a quote in this book "u can drop an awful lot of excess baggage if u learn to play with life instead of fighting it" true..i create my own reality..every experience i went thru in my life is a valuable lesson learnt..i believe that everything happens for a reason, even when we r not prudent enough to see it at times..

Positive thinking needs daily practice..we cant deny that there will be pains in our lives, we all experience loss & disappointment..no one is immune..real positive thinking allow tears to shed, yet always knowing we will get to the other side of pain & live a beautiful life..it is nv too late to be wat i wanna be..happiness is not ready made, it comes from our own actions..it is a state of mind..it is a decision..n i decide to be happy =)
Life should be viewed as an adventure rather than a struggle...

The IT pple are doing testing for asruns now & we cant do our work..wonder how long will this testing thingy take..hope it wont be too long..i've stuff to clear..

Think i woke up from the wrong side of bed this morning..i've been having mood swings since i woke up..but i m glad that i feel better the moment i reached office when i start crapping with the rest..sometimes craps in life are antidotes to a crappy day..

My mobile phone is seriously in a bad state..auto shutting down & restarting few times a day..no reception when the phone is on, i had to off the phone take out the batt n restart for the reception to resume..screen light auto on without any reason n it consumes batt span..i need to get a new phone soon..before i smash mine into pieces..

I need new songs for my mp3 player playlist...
Over-analyzing kills life..Happiness is a state of mind which one is in control...

I m so freaking tired..basically can doze off anytime anywhere..yawn~need to do some work so gotta push myself abit not to be too slack..ha..but still i think i need more sleep..

Went Yishun for steamboat..had a really full meal..till now i m feeling bloated..while we were at the restaurant, the radio played a very old chinese song "你知道我在等你吗" & after a few moments i suddenly recalled that this was the song that he asked BoonJoo to sing for me when he was pursuing me few yrs back..muahahahah..now when we think back, it juz felt so amusing..he said he want this as the march-in song for his wedding -_-" i cant stop laughing..this is hilarious..

Need to get a pair of ring-shaped earrings in white gold..lately my right ear has been weird..i cant wear any earrings in silver or plastic..everytime i wear silver or plastic earrings my right ear will get infection & the pain is quite bad..i still love big round ring-shaped earrings so i m gonna find one in white gold soon..i wonder where do they sell the design i like...

Staying late in office today..waiting for SPTL to confirm some issues before i can leave..so came on blogger..shir juz called to ask if i wanna go in JB tml wif Ping & her..cos she has a hotel room as she's helping a fren as wedding planner..so was asking if we r interested to go over shop in the daytime then bunk in at nite..i m still considering..if no other plans tml mayb i will join in..

Yongxin they all decided to open the big lollipop that Celia gave & we took some stupid pics during the process..how silly can we get =D

HR requested for my grandma death cert for them to process my compassionate leave..i've no choice but to check with my dad for it..felt so bad when i spoke to him..its like asking him for his mum death cert!! get my drift?? argh..finally he felt more settled about her death & now his daughter has to tear open his healing wound to remind him about it..he's still nice & help me with getting the cert from my uncle which made me feel even worse..other than keeping on apologising & saying thanks i dunno wat else i should do..thanks daddy..

I used up my eyeliner..need to get a new one real soon..but there are no M.A.C counters anywhere nearby..all of their counters are in town area =(
Certain shows elicit appalling emotions..shall not continue watching...