invited relatives over to my place yesterday..been 'serving tea & pouring water' for the whole day..after that the cleaning up was nitemare..so messy n dirty..best thing is after cleanin up bro bring his frens back hme..more than 10 of them..messed up the place again..but the worst part is they were so high n noisy for the whole nite i cant sleep at all! sigh..nw i m like a zombie..argh..tired still hav to come back to work..*yawn*

saw a fren's blog..well my advice for u is..think abt wat went wrong thru the process instead of dwelling on promises..when the promise was made, she meant it..but thru the process, wat u did has hurt her so much that she decided to giv up..rem,it takes both to make a r/s work..reflect instead of tryin to always put the blame on others..

Hearing problem...
a short story..
A man feared his wife wasn't hearing as well as she used to and he thought she might need a hearing aid. Not quite sure how to approach her, he called the family Doctor to discuss the problem. The Doctor told him there is a simple informal test the husband could perform to give the Doctor a better idea about her hearing loss. Here's what you do," said the Doctor, "stand about 40 feet away from her, and in a normal conversational speaking tone see if she hears you. If not, go to 30 feet, then 20 feet, and s o on until you get a response. "That evening, the wife is in the kitchen cooking dinner, and he was in the den. He says to himself, "I'm about 40 feet away, let's see what happens." then in a normal tone he asks, 'Honey, what's for dinner?" No response. So the husband moves to closer to the kitchen, about 30 feet from his wife and repeats, "Honey, what's for dinner?" Still no response. Next he moves into the dining room where he is about 20 feet from his wife and asks, Honey, what's for dinner?" Again he gets no response so; He walks up to the kitchen door, about 10 feet away. "Honey, what's for dinner?" Again there is no response. So he walks right up behind her. "Honey, what's for dinner?" ...."James, for the FIFTH time I've said, CHICKEN!"
Moral of the story:The problem may not be with the other one as we always think, could be very much within us...!

juz came back not long ago..had a shower..waiting for my hair to dry..so came online to check mails..today(or should i say yesterday cos already past 12am) keke..was 1st day of CNY..dear came over early morn ard 9+ to bai nian..i noe he's tired..but he made the effort..i feel so loved..after he went back i gotta get ready to go grandma place to bai nian..was so rush..i juz anyhow pick a set of clothes n change..keke..today at grandma hse everybody's attention was on baby kaiwei,my baby cousin..she's sooooooo adorable..2nd uncle was telling me that i was as cute when i was young..keke..wonder how true it is..hee

Me with dearest ah yi ah mei & her cutest baby kaiwei... (^^,)

after that ard 6+ went over to jie's place to bai nian..was very very rush..feel so paiseh to let his family wait..sigh..

initially after that dear was planning to bring me go watch my idol movie....but all the tickets were sold out! din thought of that in the 1st place..sigh..nvm..we'll watch it some other time bah..keke..but thanks for his effort though..

after everythin..went over to my buddy jinfeng's place for old buddy gathering..i reach ard 10+ bah..kinda late but at least i made the effort eh..keke..jinfeng cannot always complain me liao har..hahah..played a short while mahjong..then realized that there r some new pple in the clique..feels abit weird..cos old pple seems to b no longer ard & new pple joining in..doesnt feel like the old grp liao eh..sigh..but at least once in a while meet up wif them lah..
had a long chat wif ShuHui at feng's place..realized me & her had alot of things in common..keke..we were so engrossed in our talk that we dint even realized that jinfeng puked..hahah..cannot put 2 women who can click together..can chat til no awareness of the surroundings..we realized we can click quite well..i think we'll jio each other out at cwp for chit chat sessions real soon..keke..

well i think thats abt all for today..i m really tired..but gotta pack & tidy my stuff before i go to sleep..yawn~

post vday blues..i slept for barely 2hrs last nite..i m damn tired today at work..argh..went out for lunch wif my boss n colleagues..the best part is i dozed off a few times in boss car on our way back to office..OMG~i m too tired..they juz keep talkin i juz keep dozin off..lucky there isnt any meetin today,if not i think i'll juz knock out halfway thru the meeting hahah..

yesterday was 14th Feb..vday..applied for halfday leave..but ended up left office only ard 3pm due to some last min stuff cropped up..sigh..wasted few hrs leh..sigh..
met up wif dear ard 3+ outside Peach Garden..made my dear waited..*sorry dear* u noe lah office delay the time letting me off..went to Suntec City..cos he noes i still haven bought any new clothes for CNY..so wanna bring me go shop..tats very sweet..but in the end i only bought a set of casual wear..which i dun think its suitable for CNY..haiz..wat m i gonna wear for this coming new yr =(

after tat went to his company dinner..all my meals for yesterday were super full..i feel so fat..i think my plans of losing weight is thwarted again..i was clearing some old stuff at hme tat nite..found a slip of my previous medical checkup report..i was only 45kgs before i was together wif him!! i cant believe i put on so much weight after being wif him..haha..muz b all the supper sessions & usually he oso keep stuffing food into my mouth..when can i regain the slim slim me..sob..

reach hme super late last nite..ard 2am..after bathin n settling down its ard 3am le..then we were chattin til 4+..wow..i m surprised how come i can tahan til wee hrs..oh ya n the clip thingy..it was fun & exciting..heehee..a secret for me & dear..sshss~keke..this morning almost cant get out of bed for work..hahah..serve me right for sleeping so late..but i think its worth it..had a memorable vday..but think gonna need a few days to replenish the sleep lost le..but CNY in a few days time,think my beauty sleep plan is not possible le..alot of stuff to do for chinese new yr..look forward to the coming CNY (^^,)

he came all the way from SengKang juz to pick me up from work..sent me hme..then go dinner wif big head..keke..i appreciate that dear.. =)

"When i met u, i wasnt planning on falling in love..I wasnt planning on feeling so attracted to someone,but u awakened feelings inside of me that i had forgotten existed..When i met u, i dint realize how much our love would grow..I dint c then how the attraction tat first brought us together would reach beyond passion to the comfort of knowing that i hav someone very special who is not only my love but oso my closest friend..When i met u, I had no idea where our relationship would lead us & how beautiful u would make my world..But now i noe without a doubt..the luckiest day of my life was the day I met u..."

had a chat wif a gf last nite..she told me that she came to noe lately that her previous bf said somethin to another gal..
"if there are 100 flights of stairs btw us,u juz take the one step,i'll take the remaining 99 steps"
she told me even though the ex said this to another gal,he still feels for her..
i was telling her..how can ur ex still b missing u when he said such stuff to another gal..
no matter how much the ex says he miss u..once he did that,subconsciously he moved on..
she was telling me the ex nv said things like tat to her in their few yrs relationship..well,men do change..b glad that u seen how he handled situations before its too late..u went thru the toughest period wif him in life when he's the poorest..yet he dunno how to appreciate & cherish u..nw after parting wif u,he can b so nice to another gal..u think this guy is worth ur love?how many times in ur few yrs relationship he said such stuff to u? gal,u derserve someone who noes how to cherish u..especially after knowing that he can actually sweet talk to another gal in this way which he nv did to u..its time to move on..i noe its easier said than done..its the phase that u've to go thru..

actually wat he said isnt that romantic afterall..cos even that gal take the 1st step she gotta wait for him to take the remaining 99 steps..gotta wait til the gal agree to take the 1st step then he proceed wif the 99 steps..it dun sounds good or romantic to me actually..

To Dear..
i m glad that u took the 99 steps first juz to wait for my 1-step..i m luckier than the gal she mentioned..

To My Gf..
even me can meet someone who's willing to take the 99 steps juz to wait for me to say yes to the 1 step..u can do it too..u r pretty..u r nice..definitely will find someone who will take even the whole 100 steps juz to b wif u..

juz got the news that the company lunch will b on 14 Feb..OMG! i'll b havin vday lunch wif my boss & colleagues..venue confirmed is peach garden at thomson rd..wat a news to hit me for the day..

anyway,i'll b changin my hp no real soon..will sms & update frens soon..the no will b only 1-digit difference fr dear..keke..sounds corny?but i love it..heehee..thanks dear for the effort to get our mobile nos issue done even though he's busy..n the last 4-digits..thats somehow meaningful..muz hav went thru alot procedures & took up alot of his time to get things done..

Thanks dear~ *huggies*

everythin seems to cock up yesterday..insurance agent called me to inform that my giro application not approved cos of the signature..argh..and the due date is today! i gotta pay her cash cos issue cheque will take too long to process le..met up wif her at cwp..juz beside the pasar malam..sinfully i bought alot junk food fr there..argh~!! fattening..

reach hme had a tough time over the phone oso..been feelin v shitty lately..mood swings?sigh..then in the middle of the nite i was woken up by tummyache..diarrhoea n vomit til i almost called ambulance myself..today still gotta come to work..argh..i m feelin wobbly..

i nearly lost him on sat nite..all the stupid misunderstandings that happened at the wrong time..the untacful way i used to handle the situation..the way i handled everythin was wrong..terribly wrong..he muz hav felt damn disappointed by the way i handled it & the stuff that i said..i was on the verge of losing him..seems like watever things explained not enuf..til i juz feel like giving up..but when he walked past me leavin,i saw his back,instinct made me pull him back..i cannot afford to lose him juz like tat..i cried non-stop..uncontrollably..still on cold war even i was at his place..until he told me there was a msg beep on my phone..i saw the msg..from him..went to kitchen to cook noodles for him..still crying..halfway thru cooking he came in..a hug from him totally ease the tension i felt whole day..but i broke down cried even louder..tears bcos i was relieved & happy that i did not lose him..all along i noe that i cannot lose him..but that nite it really hit me hard that i really cannot afford to lose him..lucky things r ok nw..*slap myself for creatin such a big misunderstanding* silly me..

i think i gotta change the way i handle some stuff..in order not to hurt or upset pple ard me who r impt..and dear i gotta improve on the marcoroni part rite.. =P

i realized that language is a very powerful tool..words can turn into daggers when they r used harshly..how many pple actually understand this..?

he bought over rochor beancurd for supper last nite..been quite sometime that he'll buy over supper for my family..then suddenly realized that his current semester goin to end soon..meanin he'll b less stressed n more time for him to rest..but at the same time it oso mean that the days that he'll come over after class will b lesser..even though this mean lesser time together but i m glad that that he can hav more time to rest..lately has been too tiring for him..actually i m so worried..but somehow i think the end of the current hectic semester will b better for him..no more clashin of schedules..he deserves some quality rest..

"thanks for the pooh straw..i cherish all the things that u gave me from the day we met"

actually thinking back..fr the day i knew him til nw..we seemed to went thru alot alot stuff within the period..not very long..but so much happened..who would hav expect things to turn out this way..when i 1st noe him i din noe that we'll end up together nw..he really put in alot efforts..i noe he been thru a tough time oso..not easy to b wat we r nw..the insecurities & fear to move on fr my side,his past,etc..been holding back alot stuff in us..i rem when i was having a casual chat wif my buddy zw..he told me tat when a guy is willing to c the gal's parents,he is serious n puttin effort in the relationship..cos if a guy is not serious he'll not make the move of meeting the gal's parents..i can c the effort that he put in esp when he nv do all such stuff in the past before..i rem the 'x' incident..WL told me that not every man is willing to put down pride n do silly stuff for their gfs..i noe..n to b frank this trick works..always willing to come all the way to fetch me home juz bcos he wish to c me for awhile..all these actions proved that he really cares..he always says action speaks louder than words..i detest myself for not able to read into his actions..alot of stuff not neccessary to say out..i should noe..b more observant..i m appreciatin more n more..thinkin back of all the things he done,i can only feel sweetness..the whole day event at Sentosa was so well-planned n i think i'll rem for the rest of my life..i think i shall juz throw aside all the fears i used to hav n cherish the him nw..