I've to control my emotions & discipline my mind..Why do i always for nothing let my mind run wild..Its NOT healthy for me at all! Why do i always like to think of negative stuff & make myself so miserable..Is self-pity my habit?? If i assume that every problem in my life is a lesson to make me stronger then i'll nv feel like a victim isnt it?? How foolish for me to punish myself in the present moment bcos someone hurt me in the long-ago past!

Sometimes i really dun feel like talking to anybody abt wat thoughts i've running in my mind anymore..cos i find myself a nuisance..even though i believed that a real listener hears me even when i keep quiet..Why m i so cynical, skeptical & perssimistic always..Do i believe that an advantage of habitual perssimism is to protect one frm genuine despair? Am i such a true cynic that expects nothing more frm life than confimation of my disappointments?

I think alot things r only lovable when we've conquered bitter disappointments in them..
Sufferings indeed strengthens.........strengthen the strong la! am i strong enuf to tide thru everything?