saw this quote from a gd friend's blog..find it interesting..

"If u pick up a starving dog & make him prosperous, he will not bite u..that is the principal difference between a dog and a man"

having very bad monday blues..haha..woke up wif a bad headache..wat a way to start a week..

friday went to WILD bar for dear's fren,Kaijun bday..been quite sometime since i saw him already..ha..again poor bday boy got 'forced' to drink alot..but he's still conscious to go back wif us after the drinking session..but i think Coconut & Tall Guy is half gone..haha..cos we were late & they started drinking 1st..less than 10 pple we finished 4 bottles of Chivas..aiyo..even i was abit high..but still managed to stay sane to leave the place..phew~til nw i still find that Kaijun is a mr nice guy..if not for his age i'll def intro him to my galfrens..gd catch..

sat was at dear's hse til evening when we went over to changi side to his grandma hse for her bday celebration..lucky jie's sisters Angie & Wendy were there..at least got someone to talk to then wont feel bored..after sometime they started playing "dai di" then wif forfeit..me & angie gotta go to the kitchen & get their forfeit food..we were so mean..we took food like pig's trotters,mushroom mixed wif lime & coleslaw,rojak mixed wif mashed potatoes & satay sauce,jelly wif veggie sauce,chicken wing wif coke,sour plum wif mashes potatoes,etc..damn gross..i think all who played will get diarrhoea the next day..hahaha..

sunday woke up early ard 7 in the morning..dear sent me to town to get somethin done til ard lunchtime then dear come fetch me back to his place..but on our way back got into a tiff..sigh..over the same issue..so many times le..i oso sianz on this issue liao..i noe i was wrong for not being caution..but his reaction oso made the whole situation worse..i think i m too tired & frustrated then ended up in a tiff..sigh~very upset..whole day at his place we nv talk..only until at nite went dinner wif his family..he started to help me wif the food to my plate..but still we both dint resume talking..dunno whether his parents noticed anot..i juz kept talking wif wendy & angie..hope his parents dint notice..ha..when we reach hme after sometime he tried to start a conversation wif me to solve the issue..but i think i was stubborn..i juz keep giving attitude & not wanting to talk abt it..then he told me that watever i m doing will not help in the situation,will only make it worse..but still i was obstinate..ended up in a bad quarrel..but after sometime i juz say i dun wanna talk abt anythin anymore juz told him i wan to go hme by myself..think after tat he soften & come pacify me..cos think he dun bear to c me leave on my own back hme..patch things up again after tat..but felt so tired after the quarrel..i m not someone who can take quarrels..to me its an exhaustion to the mind & body..everytime after a quarrel,i'll take very long time to recover even after things r ok..which i dun think is very gd..

oh ya,yee contacted me on sunday..initially i think juz wanna confirm whether i m meeting up wif them for dinner anot..but ended up chatted over the phone for more than half yr..haha..women ah~realized tat both of us hav the same prob..losing confidence in ourselves..we tend to glamourize our past & make ourselves feel bad abt the present..but i think my condition is worse cos my confidence level has taken a plunge to the bottom..i feel tat i m useless & i cant accomplish anything in life..i think i m such a failure..be it any aspects of my life..i wonder how can pick myself up & b more confident..i need help~argh..

finally its friday..alot things happened in office lately..so felt that time pass damn slow..its finally friday..wkend here i come..ha..lately not really happening in my life..everyday morning come to work..suffer 10hrs in office then knock off..not much OT lately..heng ah..then after work will meet dear for dinner.. but lately his fren Dustin & Dustin's gf Hazel will join us..everyday will hav dinner together then head to Gelare for waffles..*sinful diet* haha..think both me & Hazel gained weight after being together wif current beau..ha..saw each other's pics b4 we were wif current guy..so slim~ sigh..

met up wif Hazel b4 the guys came on wed..had a chat wif her at MOS burger..realized tat we r quite alike in terms of how we view relationships..ha..then chatted on alot stuff..some which i dun think we'll even share wif Dustin or Kiat..keke..women's secrets..think both of us gotta try to increase our self-confidence & stop feeling so insecure..heehee..

had a short chat wif mum when i came back today..actually i realized tat my mum seldom nag..which makes her different fr alot mothers i noe..most of them r naggers esp to their children..but somehow my mum doesnt..since i was young i always asked her, "mummy y u dun nag at me or brother de?" she'll juz say, "nag got use meh..ur life is in ur own hands..watever u do b responsible & dun regret..i nag oso no use..u all muz think fr urself..no point forcing.." wow~she's good..keke..mayb bcos my mum seldom nag at me,i m really very willing to talk to her..everytime when i've free time i'll sit down beside her & we'll chat abt everythin under the sun..from my work,my relationship,my frens,tv serials,latest news on papers/tv,gossips,soccer matches(esp on Ars),my brother & dad,my relatives,etc..everythin under the sun..alot of pple r envious..cos i m really close to her..and fr wat i rem,ever since young i nv even raised my voice once at her..super fillial daughter..haha..thats somethin i m very proud of myself..

"MUMMY I LOVE U" even though she wont read my blog..but i juz wanna declare my love for her..thank her for bringing me up & taking care of me..hugs..

oh ya..talk abt nagging..i always feel tat the main reason nagging doesnt work is tat it has the build-in expectations of failure..while naggers hope their words will push their victims into actions,they often expect them to fail or they invite a negative response..the major mistake is the way they approach the problem..some deal wif their problem in small,trivial niggling bits..make feeble,indirect requests tat r heavily laden wif guilt..this kind of nagging is pointless & self-defeating and creates a lose/lose situation..nagging is a sign tat women wants more..

had a chat wif jas lately..i think somehow we r the same type of women..we r brought up in a way believing that we should b nice & sweet and put out own needs & feelings last..we believe its our role to keep the peace,to smooth over problems,to b liked & loved..many women find it difficult to juz come out & say
"i m not happy living like this,,i feel stifled..i wan to take a break fr everythin for few wks to go off by myself & hav some time out.."
its true..we always feel the heavy responsibility to be good & make sure everythin is fine..but jas is tougher,i m the soft one..the similarity is tat we feel obliged to b good & make sure that everyone ard us is happy..should we continue like this or we should make some changes?i oso dunno...

today new driver came in to start work le..but i think he's a fast learner so still ok lah..very fast clear of the document instructions..but i think need longer time to c wat kind of person he really is..

today came straight hme after work..chatted wif dear for a short while on the phone..the moment i hear his voice i started babbling all the stuff tat happened at work today..non-stop..at the end of the conversation he asked me whether got anythin else to tell him anot..i only told him i missed him n take care of himself..after putting down the phone i realized tat thruout the conversation wif him i only keep talking abt my stuff..i dint ask anythin abt how was his day or wat happened for his day..i noe he muz b bored by me keep talking abt my workplace stuff but he dint say anythin..sigh..i should b more sensitive rite..if he keeps talkin abt his work stuff i oso will feel bored de bah..hmmm..i think i should try to b more sensitive..keke..

he has been having bad headaches lately..too heaty i supposed..the whole stretch fr the back of the head to his neck so stiff & aching..last nite i massage for him awhile..used all my strength..after tat he felt better..i can seriously consider to b a massager..haha..he's gonna kill me if he sees this..cos always say tat i can only massage for him..not other pple..ha..traits of MCP.. =P

scary day..came to office to realize that my driver was sacked by my boss yesterday..i wasnt aware of it at all until this morning when i came to work..this is the 3rd person he sacked within 4 mths..OMG~better watch my back before i become next in his list..sigh..i think seeing colleagues keep kanna sacked it demoralize us..sigh..he can juz compensate them one mth salary & ask them to leave on the spot..scary..i m lucky to survive here for almost 3 yrs..boss like hard working staff haha..but i slogged like a cow here wor..kanna backstab somemore..haiz..working society is like tat..wat to do..actually i dun think i m a very ambitious or career-minded person..working for the sake of pay cheque every mth..i wonder i'll stay like tat forever or my mindset will change in a couple of yrs..who knows...

this wk is a long wkend due to good friday..on good friday itself i was at kiat's place..he was sick..flu + sore throat..whole day stayed at hme watchin old HK shows haha..we finshed the happy ghost series! total 5 episodes..we finish in a day..haha..think the 1st episode was shot in 1984..i was only 2yrs old then! how time flies..kiat was very sweet..even though he wasnt feeling well, he still cooked mee sua for me..i think he used the method of my mum..the ikan billies theory..but think he add in some other stuff to make the soup base tasty..i suck in cooking so can only enjoy the food he prepared loh..sigh~i think i need to really learn how to cook..if not will suffer..haha..actually doin nothin juz stayin at hme to watch tv is actually a nice feeling..relaxing & slower pace..

this morning he gotta rush to workplace..sent me back after da baoing breakfast..reach hme wanna sleep after breakfast but the darned neighbour started drilling & drilling again..they hav been like this for the past few yrs..every wkend they'll start drilling dunno wat fr late morn..cant sleep..watch a few dvds that i borrowed fr colleagues..then nap for a short while b4 mummy woke me up to go out & collect the new mail box keys..head is spinning & aching..dint get quanlity & quantity sleep i supposed..when will i ever hav adequate sleep i wonder..sometimes i juz need to sleep w/o being disturbed..full 10hrs of sleep w/o waking up during the sleep..but i think its impossible for a light sleeper like me..the slightest sound can wake me up..

watched a few dvds today.."美女食神", "生日快乐", "Charlottes's Web", "Night in a musuem"..last wk went to watch "Mr Bean's Holiday" & "TMNT"..watch Mr Bean's Holiday on a friday after eating at billy bombers..initially wanna watch at TM but the queue at the cinema was terrible..damn long..i think it was bcos of the promotion thingy's from Ruffles..for each empty Ruffles packet wif the promotion sticker entitles to a $4 rebate at any GV cinema..haha..that explains the long long queues..then in the end we suah to Century Sq for the show..hee..but the show wasnt as gd as i expected (actually i dun really like Mr Bean's shows all along lah ha) but some parts were funny & the little boy in the show was cute..the next day we brought kiat's youngest sister Wendy to TM to watch "TMNT"..lucky this time we were smart..booked the tickets online beforehand..looking at the queue when we reach,we were shaking our heads & lucky we bought the tickets online..hahah..actually TMNT was an anime that i liked alot when i was young..seeing the turtles saving the world..keke..

actually b4 the previous wk i think it has been quite sometime since i watched movie in the cinema..still rem in the past i'll watch every new show showing in the theatres..those were the days..sigh~well things change & lifestyle will change oso..gotta get on in life & cherish every moment i have..

oh ya..the day when we went to Century Sq for the show..me & kiat took a neo-print..been quite sometime we took neo-print together le..haha..somethin embarrassing happened at the neo-print shop..i wont elaborate..but it made me laughed so loud at that pt of time..think kiat felt damn embarrassed..heehee..

this the pic we took

went to the MTA exhibition last wk..from wed~sat..my company taking part in it every yr..trade exhibition to me is boring..cos its all abt machinery,precision,etc..bore me to tears..office paperwork piling up while i m feeling so bored at the exhibition..sigh..everyday reach office 8+ to prepare, go over to expo ard 10+, ends at 6+, come back office & do my paperwork til almost 9+..so tiring..and i think the response of the exhibition wasnt really that gd..not much enquiries..sigh..boss spent almost S$10K on the exhibition yet this is the outcome..i think i m cursed during exhibition..2005 MTA-Singapore i lost my nokia 6680, 2006 MTA-KL my a Motorola V3 was stolen, 2007 MTA-Singapore i lost my hp strap..argh..even the other exhibitors rem me losing my phones..sigh..the feeling was terrible..esp the time when i was in KL & my phone was stolen..not v convenient for me to reach my loved ones..cos no phone in exhibition hall & cant expect me to always borrow phone fr others to make overseas calls..sigh..this yr i tied the hp to the exhibitor's pass..i managed to keep the phone but i lost the strap! argh m i being cursed..

those exhibitors whom i knew last yr were there too..we still rem one another..esp those very funny uncles..haha..lucky they were there..if not even more bored..as it was an industrial trade event, most of the participants were guys..so making me the minority of the gals there..always kanna kajiao..muz bear wif it..cos some r potential customers..argh..funnier part is there's a director wanna intro his son to me..gulp~lotsa happening stuff there..but to me,i juz hope the exhibition will end fast..cos its really tiring..think the accumulative lack of sleep is pulling me down..lately always having a hard time getting out of bed every morning..*yawn*

today dear came to meet me for lunch..went to the yatch club..but so many pple..the food serve so slow..then he keep di siao me say i confirm go back to work late..sigh..lucky i m poise..heehee..think cos i m juz too tired liao..hack care the consequences of coming in late..the most is kanna scold by superiors loh..haha..everyday work til so late eh..but the food quite nice lah..so full & so sleepy..keke..

this morning office "thunderstorm"..driver talk back to manager in quite a harsh manner..then she complained to boss..then all angry..sigh..seems like everyone in the office r unhappy lately..sigh~hope the storm will cool off soon..if not i m in difficult position oso..too tired to meddle in their affairs liao..ha..