Taking a short break for lunch so decided to blog..feel like havin comfort food so having LJS nw =) wif add on skin-on potato chips..catching up abit on HK drama now while eating..

Yesterday met up wif him after work..he called up & initially wanted to meet up for dinner..but i think i was whiny bcos of the call from my family previously so dint end the call in a happy note..after tat met up at Tamp Mall cos i need to buy a pair of slippers as mine snapped..when we met up he was juz jokingly teasing me abt the chat we had on the phone previously but i think i got abit defensive & upset..ended up buying MOS burger & fishcake home for dinner..

After tat went petrol station juz to buy my fav ice cream..but i think i was still sulking..so he actually initiate to tell me some stuff..he asked why i've to harp on the teasing part n b unhappy & yet ignored the positive part tat he actually went to Tamp Mall, parked the car, came up to fetch me acc me buy dinner then bought ice cream & go home together to enjoy dinner with each other's company..

Actually i was abit surprised when he said that..cos usually he'll juz keep quiet whenever things happened..but to a certain extend i felt happy =) cos finally after so long we r having real talks, rather than always juz keepin mum to avoid quarrels whenever we feel unhappy abt wat happened..so i decided to curb my usual defensive mode & listen patiently to wat he said..n yes it make sense..to me communication is very impt cos we get to express how we feel & let the other person noe wat we r thinkin..when we talk to each other nicely abt wat we r unhappy about, the other party will listen & think rationally..
In fact, wat he told me was really wat i've been thinkin abt recently isnt it..focusin on the right things not to make myself unhappy..whole journey back other than the teasing part,he was really nice to me, but i overlooked tat & keep harpin on the wrong issue..i felt so bad abt it esp when he still talk to me nicely, insisting he wasnt angry juz telling me so i wont keep makin myself upset..i think both of us changed alot..our temper & the way we handled things..n i believe both r changing for the better =)

Thanks to the talk, i felt alot better when we reached home..not only i straighten out my thoughts, the communication feeling feels great too..he brought his laptop out to dining rm n we watched 绝代商娇while eating dinner..funny show & the leading guy is really very very smart in the show..i think 黄子华is the only guy in HK tv serials tat is likeable even though he doesnt has a fine-looking face =P he's really funny..i think intellectual men r so much more attractive than juz plain good-lookin guys..think the tension was gone when we got home..we were laughin hard at the show & sharin a tub of Ben's & Jerry ice cream after dinner =)
I wish..i can spend more quality time with him..

I m glad tat i've pple ard me who hav always been helping me to pick myself up when i slump for the past year..
I will be a better person..i've confidence in myself =) the Juan that used to be bringin laughters & having positive influences to the pple ard me will be back..focus gal..focus...