Been such a long time since i really have the time to blog..busy wif work..now i m using his laptop to blog..he's taking a short nap..been bz wif his work & studies lately..can c that he's so tired..*heartache* he has been bz wif the grp discussion & preparing for the 2 presentations next wk..keep feeling that 24hrs a day is not enough for him..been hard on him le..even the time we meet up is lesser..in the past we used to meet up everyday..but now we both cannot afford the time..so,now we meet up like twice on wkdays & as usual i'll reserve my wkends for him..i know i need to b understanding..he's working so hard for the future..i'll be supportive de..

Lately i've been juggling wif 5 logs per wk..alot huh..but lucky i've the 3 of them wif me at work..the friendship we have at work is one of the motivation that i have regardless of how tiring work is..Last friday was the company 10th anniversary D&D..theme was 'Back To School'..all of us turned up at Sheraton in school uniform..it was so fun..i'll upload the pics here when i've the time..uploaded some on friendster..alot old frens actually msged to tell me that i dint change much for the past 10 yrs..whee! haha..

Been burying myself at work for the past few days..feel so tired everyday after work..but still make a point to meet him on wkdays..i miss him when i dun c him..izzit good to be so reliant on him?i dunno..i wasnt like this in the past..ever since young i always believed that i m an independent gal..i can do & solve things myself without others..cos i dun wan others to worry abt me..i m always the sensible gal in my family & friends eyes..but somehow i m dependent on him..i realized his every actions & words will affect how i feel for the day..every nite b4 i go to sleep i hope that his sms is wat i c last before turning in..every morn when i wake up i hope that his sms is wat i c 1st on my mobile..i cannot explain y i became so reliant on him..i think its bcos i love him..more & more til i m losin control of my emotions..its gd to have someone there for u..but i really dun wan to b so dependent..

I noe he has his work to do..i hope that i can b more independent like how i used to be..so that he dun need to worry abt me when he's doin his work..road will be tough as alot pple r having high expectations on him..but i believed that he can do it..he used to tell me "i m choa boon kiat leh,nothing in this world i cannot do de"..i love to c him seriously doin his work..attracted by his capability & the way he can analyse situations..wenliang always tells me..behind every successful man is a supporting woman..hope that i m be supporting enough..that he can juz rest on me whenever he's feeling tired & need a rest..

Yesterday went down to Orchard juz to buy the eyeliner..nearest m.a.c. counter..haiz..then after that supposed to meet him after his proj discussion de..but the discussion was dragged til quite late..planned to go Pasir Ris mrt find a spot drink tea read mag to wait for him..but i think he was worried so while having his discussion he actually contacted tua tao & wenliang to meet me up & acc me since they r all Pasir Ris too..appreciate that even though he's rushing thru his work liao still worry for me..i noe he felt bad for not having time for me..i can tell..even tuatao & wenliang was saying that he's juz worried that i m alone at Pasir Ris..hehe..met up wif wenliang first at Pasir Ris interchange..went to HK cafe for some food & teh..was chit chatting wif him when tuatao came..after that went to the prawning area to find Mok..sat there & juz relax..then he rushed here after the discussion..sat there for a while chatted wif wenliang on his work & plans..i was actually quite mesmerized by the way he talked *blushed* he has so many ideas in mind & analysed the whole situation well..that was one of the reason y i was attracted to him in the 1st place..but of cos is oso the way he treats me..always taking gd care of me & making me feel impt..after that went back to his place took shower had a short chat then went to sleep..poor dear, always not enuf time to sleep..today he'll be spending time at home to prepare for him presentation tml..so other than the occasional hugs & kisses i dun wanna disturb him..has been watching AXN fr lunch til now..cos today's AXN log is mine..juz sat down & watch to make sure that there r no mistakes hahaha..

Later after dinner i'll be heading home le..cannot bear to say bye to him but i noe he needs time for his stuff..& i need to go back home as i'll be shiftin soon so there r alot things to be done..gonna be busy wif the hse shifting soon le..keke..*sweat* hahah..

Okay i m gonna be positive & look forward for a better tomorrow.. (",)