i nearly lost him on sat nite..all the stupid misunderstandings that happened at the wrong time..the untacful way i used to handle the situation..the way i handled everythin was wrong..terribly wrong..he muz hav felt damn disappointed by the way i handled it & the stuff that i said..i was on the verge of losing him..seems like watever things explained not enuf..til i juz feel like giving up..but when he walked past me leavin,i saw his back,instinct made me pull him back..i cannot afford to lose him juz like tat..i cried non-stop..uncontrollably..still on cold war even i was at his place..until he told me there was a msg beep on my phone..i saw the msg..from him..went to kitchen to cook noodles for him..still crying..halfway thru cooking he came in..a hug from him totally ease the tension i felt whole day..but i broke down cried even louder..tears bcos i was relieved & happy that i did not lose him..all along i noe that i cannot lose him..but that nite it really hit me hard that i really cannot afford to lose him..lucky things r ok nw..*slap myself for creatin such a big misunderstanding* silly me..

i think i gotta change the way i handle some stuff..in order not to hurt or upset pple ard me who r impt..and dear i gotta improve on the marcoroni part rite.. =P